Writing

Wow it's been a long time since I have written anything here. I feel bad...not because I think I have a huge audience expecting amazing prose from me daily...but because I really have been thinking about
writing a lot.

I love to write. I know I'm not very good at it and that many people may not even know that I do it...but I still love it.

If you know me in real life you know I'm awkward as all get out and that I put my foot in my mouth more often than not. You also know that I have a very small personal filter...and that usually is what makes me awkward... That and being extremely introverted while trying to act like I am extraverted.

When I write I don't feel the social pressure to be normal or to fit in. I can edit my words so they don't come across as harsh or intense. I fell free when looking at a blank page knowing I can fill it how I choose.

I love writing because it forces me to think long and hard before I push publish... I know my words cannot be taken back once out on the webs so I do better at filtering my thoughts and ideas.

I think sometimes I have so much to say that it all just gets jammed up inside and then when I meet up with a friend it just dumps out in an incoherent mess. Here in this place I can formulate my thoughts and organize them into sentences that can be understood and that are not overwhelming(at least that is my goal)

I also love to read-a lot-and writing often-or semi often-helps me feel more connected in a way to a literary world that captivates and feeds me.

Also there are these sweet little people in my life








and I really do not want to forget the small precious things they say and do. I want to record them and lock them down so that in the future when their wives ask me when they first tasted avocado I will remember that moment.

Those are some of my reasons for writing... What are yours?
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The way it really is: being the crazy lady

About a week ago I lost our radio face thing at Fred Myers...well Henry technically lost it but I am in charge of him so I will take the blame. Today I went back(after calling several times) to see if customer service had it...and to check in the big car cart we used(it had this creepy whole where I just knew lost items would love to hangout) I asked customer service if anyone turned it in...nope. I asked the manager if he could take apart the cart and look in the creepy whole...his face told me everything I needed to know...I was that lady the really crazy one who asks the most outrageous stuff of the store managers...I was my gram. Uhg.

Any way he looked and even tried reaching in...no luck. He did find a thing of bubbles, an old sock, a blue binky that I am pretty sure belonged to us(we lost one the same day as the radio but we are always loosing them so who knows), a pack of gum, half a granola bar, and someones phone. He said he would ask his boss to look into it further but did not ask for my contact info so I am pretty sure he was just saying that. He was nice to me but he had this look on his face the whole time that said"this woman is nuts and I will say anything to get her to forget this cart thing". So I walked away and did my shopping only to find him  and another employee laughing as I passed...no doubt discussing my delusion of my car stereo face residing in a cart...sigh. I cant care that they thought I was weird  tho.

If you know me well you know that is my cars 6th stereo. I am embarrassed to admit it but to my credit usually its not my fault when we have to get a new one... usually its because someone steals it out of our car. Any way it may be a while before we save up enough to get a new one...they are expensive! And we have literally purchased 6 of them...if only car toys had a punch card for this.  Who knows maybe it will eventually turn up at Freds...got to keep the dream alive.

on the plus side...gf pretzels on sale!