I never knew

I guess I noticed for the first time that you were different when your brother developed so much differently than you... Not just a personality of his own(that was clear from day two) but maybe around 18 month development ?

I guess I noticed things were off but I kept shoving them under the carpet because "you were a perfect baby/chid" how could something really be off... It was probably just me being lazy at the parenting wheel.

But the gaps just kept getting larger and the differences more noticeable.



You are still perfect to me. Just not the same as other kids. You have a learning disability in frustration tolerance and handling flexibility. You view the world in a way completely new to me. You are a bit of a loner. You are not into trying new things and you have only lied one time in your life...last month... It was pathetic. Your emotional and challenging. You dont seem to understand mental projection...Your also earnest, companionate, kind and willing to help.

You are mine.



And even tho there are definitely some things about you I never knew... I love them. You were fearfully and wonderfully made! Made to bring a good God glory! And you will! You do! You challenge me in ways I never could have known I could stretch. You bring me joy. God loved me in such a big way he gave me you child... A boy unlike the rest. One who he made just for me. I am blessed to be your mom and I am not ashamed that you are not just like everyone else. I am proud of every hair on your head.



Our lives will be different sometimes... I won't get to be as sarcastic and you'll need to tone down the Dino impressions in public(among other things) but we will grow and learn how to love each other well. In ways we never knew we could.
Love momma.



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